A Letter

"Yes, that is exactly what I meant by it.. But I wasnt happy then because I was just on my own, I was happy in the knowledge that I was comfortable in my skin and ready to share that skin with someone else. You remember when we watched that film (INTO THE WILD).I took so much from it. One of the quotes strikes me. "Some people feel like they don't deserve love. They walk away quietly into empty spaces, trying to close the gaps of the past". and another towards the end of the film, "Happiness only real when shared" so yes I have been thinking whilst doing college work. I dont mind been on my own or with someone but when you reach a point in your life and you're in college or working or having fun or not having fun. You just want to share those experiences with a person who is willing to listen, understand and advise or comfort you. To be understood does not come easy... You just wanna say f#@k it,I dont wanna do something and not be able to share it with someone. Sharing with your friends is different. To share an experience no matter how boring or interesting it is, is a wonderful connected experience.. To be included in someones life is to be accepted, welcomed and nurtured. Why are we here on this earth at all if we cant do those things that make us happy or included... there is too much exclusion in the world to not appreciate simple meaningful, or meaningless connections. Become who you want to become and when you do, it becomes obvious that been able to do things on your own is fantastic and rewarding but when there is no one there to see you do this or have a conversation with then you realise as i have realised that that quote "happinness only real when shared" is pretty true. I experienced it in New York in the mountains, I was ok but did miss having a person to share the experince with. Even if it was a simple conversation which I ended up seeking out from locals to talk about how long the river was or the history of the area. I needed some one to share it with."